Gosh, this beautiful, melancholic piece of writing is a heartfelt work of the soul. It reached into my heart and made me tear up, both in sympathy and empathy. I spent a lot of time in a mental hospital/prison this year, and so much of what you said evoked powerful, bittersweet memories that I had already forgotten. It is a strange existence. The sense of familiarity, across decades, states, and hospitals, is eerie. Thank you so much for sharing so much of yourself here, and I am so glad you are doing so much better now. You are a warrior without compare. <3